Me Time

I'm come to the realization over the past few months that I need some serious "ME " Time!! After being with hubby for so long and having our daughter I feel that I've just let myself Go!!! Now more than ever I got to get back to the ole me, the me that took pride in her appearance, the me that had goals and strived to achieve them!! For along time I haven't been happy and I need to find the happiness that is Desparately Missing in my life. If I"m not 100% happy then what good am I to my hubby or my child!! Hopefully, the Me Time will be a big help and I'll find the happiness tha I once had and be made whole again!!!

Feeling Like a Lost Child

My title describes how I'm feeling right now!! I'm feeling this emptiness inside and I don't know why!! I told my hubby earlier today that I just feel empty inside and he has suggested that I see someone. I don't mind going to see someone, but I don't want to be judged nor do I want to be medicated!! Sometimes, I just feel as if I have no purpose in life .

Emotional Roll-a-coaster

It's been awhile since I've last blogged, and I must say I've Missed It!! I'm going through some emotional things right now, and I've been kinda feeling that I need to get back to Release what I"ve been feeling!!! Today, for some reason off and on I've been in thid Funk!! I woke up this morning feeling kinda of down, why? I guess life and me not being pleased with myself right now. Today, I went through alot of what if's and regrets!! I've cried a lot today, and it has helped, but the pain is still there. Sometimes I just really no longer want to the Responsibilities of Adult Life!! I wish at times I could be back at home with my mom and only had to worry about ME!!! I did go and volunteer today (made me fee a little better), did a little shopping, treated myself to lunch!! I got home talked with my hubby for a little bit and shut myself in our bedroom for a little bit. I was crying, talking to God,  and listening to William McDowell (Give Myself Away). The phone rang it was my cousin that!! We talked about stuff, laughed, and she just listened. I must say after talking and laughing with her I felt much better!! Her phone call was definitely right on time!!  I really don't know what the real root of this emotional roll-a-coaster that I'm on is, but I do know tha something must give!!